Ben Andrews



The Paradox of "Self-Control"


"Self-Control" is a paradox...

Something known as
"Vicious Circularity" or "Dialetheism”...
a statements that can be both true and false simultaneously...

When we are in
(control of "self") that's when we are the most "out of Control"
yet when we allow God to be in control
His "Self-Control" becomes ours
Then and only then does HIS Fruit in our life produce "Self-control".

Lord, today - I surrender my "control of self" to you
Let your will reign in me - so all the world sees is you...

I love you Lord...



Ben and Mary Andrews


Eyes of The White Flag Carriers

White Flags
I see Jesus... He is again holding His white flag – sitting upon His great horse – but this morning – something is different. Behind Him are rows and rows and rows – thousands upon thousands of rows - of horses – all seated with the children of men upon them – and each one of them is holding a white flag. Some are men – some are women – some are boys and some are girls – all holding up white flags.

I center my eyes on their faces. They look focused and attentive on something... In their eyes I can see and because I’m in the spirit realm I can sense resolve... Rows and rows and rows of resolve – all lined up behind Jesus – waiting for His next move. As I watch... Jesus nudges His horse in the left ribs... His horse takes two steps to the right. And as I watch – all the rows of white flag carriers, nudge their horses and they too - take two steps to the right. Amazing – Within seconds of His move – they move... Then again Jesus nudges His horse, but this time in the right ribs – His horse takes two steps to the left... Again the white flag carriers – nudge their horses and they too take two steps to the left – lining back up perfectly behind Jesus...

I get it! The thing that they are focused on – isn’t a war or a plan or movement... they are all focused on Jesus and His next move...

Yes – you have seen well... Your heart eyes are beginning to see the ranks. This is rare for a human to see the heaven ranks so clear. Look again in their eyes – look closely in - each of their eyes...

OK Jesus...

So I focus in on their intense eyes. Walking over to one of the girls – maybe sixteen or seventeen years old... She is dressed Heavenly armor – as are all of them... I look into her eyes – mind you I am on the ground below – near the front shoulder of her horse... I can tell she sees me. She even lifts the corner of her mouth – and smiles... but still never takes her eyes off of Jesus.

“Then I see it – she has the eyes of Christ. She has His blue flame eyes – Can this be possible? Yet they are unmistakable! She has Jesus eyes!”

Again She smiles – I hadn’t realized but I was taking out loud... This time she is smiling from ear to ear... Then she speaks...

“Yes – I have His eyes – I see what He sees and He sees what I see... Aren’t they beautiful?”

Yes... I say – now weeping from their beauty...

How did you get them? I ask

O’ don’t you know?

No... How?

We all have them! You have them! The day you asked Jesus into your life – into your heart – you received them – but He lets you choose whether you use them or not. We are the white flag carriers – we all have made the choice to use them – Where He goes, we go... What He does, we do... Where He leads, we follow... Want to come with us? More are joining every day?

Sure... I tell her...

I look up... and it’s then that I notice – His eyes! They all have His eyes! – Those beautiful blue flame eyes! WOW!

Jesus interrupts and startles me... “So, what did you see?”

I saw you - Jesus – everywhere – they all have your eyes....

As they should... as they should... They are all my children after all – as are you.

While looking up at Jesus - a beautiful, powerful horse walks up from behind me.

Jump on! Let’s go for a ride! But keep your eyes on me all day – then you will see with my eyes. You will see things the way I see them. You will be able to see what you’ve never been able to see before – like my white flag carriers...

OK Jesus – I’m all in! Let’s do this! I love you Lord....

I love you too... Keep your eyes on me! I want you to see what I see – all day... OK?

OK Jesus – Your eyes – not mine... WOW!

Ben and Mary Andrews

Thoughts for this “New Year” 2012


Written by: Ben Andrews

I used to think... That I was supposed to model Jesus- I thought – All I have to do is study Jesus – and then be like him... After all that’s what being a Christian is – “Christ like” Right? Aren’t we to try and muster up a gigantic inner force to “Try to live like Him”? That sounds like just more of me though?

I wish I had a dollar for every time I’ve heard – something along these lines... “ Do right! - Do right! - Do right! Until the stars fall!” or you need to have more character! or “You’re just not saved if you...” fill in the blank_________But isn’t this just more willfulness? – Sure in the right direction – but still misguided...

The harder we try the worse we feel... when we fail!
Isn’t that how it goes- unless you
just stop trying all together... and that’s where this leads if we let it play all the way out – I know – I’ve been there!

WOW! What a trap from the enemy!
Get them on the gerbil wheel – wear them out – then they’ll get so discouraged that – I’ll have them eating right out of my hands... What a great plan...
Let me ask you the
now famous question: “So how’s that working for you?”

I don’t know about you – but as for me – IT’S NOT WORKING!

So why don’t we try something else?
How about if we listen to Jesus...
I mean listen to what he said in the Bible
and also take time and listen to what he’s saying to us right now?

Maintaining personal righteousness is not our job?
What? Blasphemy! I tell you – Blasphemy! – Stay with me...

“To love Him is to obey Him” – BUT... Out of what resources?
It must come from what fountain of inner Strength?
Of course... our choices matter – But didn’t Jesus warn: “Apart from Me you can do nothing?”
John 15:5

Here’s some good news... “You were never meant to mimic Christ.
We were not meant to live as he did. Isn’t this a huge relief!
We were NOT meant to imitate Jesus!

The life of Christ is in you...
Allowing His life to become your life- (so much so) that we don’t know where His life end and ours begins. That’s it!

This isn’t about
self transformation – It’s not about a better you!
It’s about His transformation
of us - from the inside out!
New DNA – The “Mystery” remember? – Christ in us and us in Christ!

We are supposed to tap into (His life) and then allow him to live through us.
John 15 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
NOTHING! - But we still try! WHY?
--- What a willful people we are!

We must die! – We must surrender! – We must unclench or fists - if we are to do this – If we are to allow Jesus to... live in and through us?

-So this year – Lets do it different...
-Lets think in a different way...
-Let do it His way – instead of our way...

How about we let His will be done in us – as it is in Heaven - and see how that works for us...

Maybe – Just maybe? At the end of the year – we can look back and say? –
Not that we did good... but ---
“Well-done Jesus – Well done!”

Jesus I surrender again – right now to you – I yield and ask you to live in and through me... Amen...

Ben and Mary Andrews

True "Christianity"


Written by: Ben Andrews

True "Christianity" is not like any other religion on the earth. In fact it really isn't a religion. Religion by definition: a set of beliefs, rules, guidelines - involving devotional and ritual observances, and often containing a moral code governing the conduct of human affairs. Let me tell you... Allot, if not most Christians see it this way - but Jesus didn't teach this... What he taught was more than a way of living "right" and doing the "right" things - He taught a different way of seeing. Most Christians are living for (“some day” in the future) - If I do enough good - or don't so too much bad - then Jesus will be pleased with me.
What Jesus was trying to get us to understand was that we are NOT seeing... He didn't come to get us to see more correctly - He came to give us SIGHT! He said that we are blind! He said you can’t see! He wants us to see His kingdom - NOW! Not later!
Religion says "Do BETTER!" Jesus said, "I am the light - and if you will step into the light... you’ll be able to see!"

See What? See into the kingdom realm - See what the world cannot see... Sure... the world can see right and wrong – but what has that done for them?

So what was He talking about? He was talking about a way of seeing life - that cannot be seen without faith – Cannot be seen without Jesus – Cannot be seen without and through "The Way" of which He said He was "The Way".
He said – your eyes have been blinded.
So why do we get so stuck on doing more good and less evil? - Because that is all that dead things can see... We are dead men walking. But you say – Hey I’m not dead – I’m a Christian!” You may be a Christian alright, but your flesh isn’t dead! Until our flesh dies your spirit man will be taking a back seat. Becoming Christian – asking Jesus into your heart is just the beginning - a key - that opens the door - but you must step through.
Jesus came to bring us life... To the degree that we die to self - it is to that same degree that we step into the new life that Jesus came to give us. This isn’t about emptying ourselves out – tapping into the “Void”. This is about tapping into and connecting to life!
He wants us to tap back into His life that flows from the very throne of God! - But until we stop trying to be a better dead person - stop trying to do less wrong and do more right we are still feeding the flesh. We are no different than the unsaved! – What a trick from the enemy... WOW! We still don’t get it!

In order to truly live... Jesus said we must surrender and totally die to this thing called self or the flesh!
Promotion of more "will power" is just - a more "powerful self"!

We will never come to live "fully" in the “New Life” that Jesus offers until we get out of the way!
Religion is a set of rules and guidelines.
Christianity is Jesus – Living (IN US! and (Through US!) as we get out of the way...

Lord, Today - give us eyes to see... Let your love - your life - begin to flow in and through us - so the world will see that this is you and not us doing this... I surrender and yield again today to you Jesus... Amen...

Ben and Mary Andrews